Alcohol helped. I`d do my thing for about 30 minutes, pretty much just one scene, and then the producers would cut me a check. In 30 minutes I was $15,000 richer. The money was great, but it was starting to wear on me, wear on my conscience. To be honest, I enjoyed the money more than I enjoyed the sex. But now I`m done with being Crave. I haven`t done a movie in a while. It`s all behind me now. I`m more religious and I`m focusing on serious acting again. When my mom found out what I had been doing, I`m glad she didn`t judge me. I`m still young with a bright future ahead of me. I`m glad my mistakes are behind me now."
It was a hard adjustment, I didn`t really have any friends and people seem to think you`re rich because they`ve seen you on TV, but actually, I wasn`t. I never saw a cent of the money I`d earned on `Family Matters. When I turned 20 my family filed for bankruptcy and a judge allowed my money from my trust fund to go toward bailing the family of out of debt. All of my money went to cover the bankruptcy. I couldn`t believe it. In an instant I was dead broke.`
I got mixed up with the wrong crowd and got caught up in the money. My girlfriend, who was also a porn star herself, turned to me and simply stated that she was a whore and would always be a whore. But something snapped in my head. I said, Well, you may be a whore but I`m not. That`s it. Let me out of the car. I`m never doing this again. And I didn`t!"