After xXx (2002) came out, because of all the publicity, I was wearing Prada and going to the gym, and I had an agent in L.A. and all this shit that I`ve avoided for years. I felt that was expected of me, that I had to be a sexy bombshell. I started receiving all these offers for these kick-ass chick sort of roles. But it didn`t make me very happy, to tell the truth, and after giving birth, it all felt different. I don`t mean to sound like a bourgeois moralist, but it`s true - I started thinking, "What is Anna (her daughter) going to think?"
(in answer to the question "How do you want to be remembered?") As somebody who has done everything, but didn`t know how to do anything.
I want to be adopted by the french. I want to go to live in Paris. I want to live in a country where a guy like Gaspar Noé can direct his films without going to jail. I don`t want to live in Italy, the country of the apes, and end up being an actress with an onion placed where I once had a heart, that instead of beating, it stinks.
Sometimes I think my father (director Dario Argento) gave me life because he needed a lead actress for his films.
I always saw myself as really ugly. My father even told me I was ugly because I would shave my head and look like a boy. Then, when I was 21, I was offered this part in a movie where I was supposed to be really sexy (Michael Radford`s B. Monkey (1998)). It was strange for me to have to research femininity, but I found out these tricks for getting attention that I didn`t know before. It was a kind of revenge, I guess, on all the kids who said I was ugly at school.
I tend to be a lazy actress, unless I`m pushed. Most of the time nothing much is required of directors, which is a pity. I`ve worked with very few directors who`ve asked of me what I asked of myself.
In a way, when you talk so much about something, it does not belong to you any more. It`s happened to me and my bad memories. I`ve manipulated them and now they could be parts of Gone with the Wind (1939).
I have nothing in my life besides my work. I am obsessed with it. I leave my house only when I`m forced to. All my life, I have felt that what I did was wrong. But now when I work I feel good about it.
Italy to me is like the mean mother. Whatever I do, it`s never good enough. People say I`m the queen of Cannes, but in Italy I get turned down for work.
I care only about that. Almost only about cinema.
During the shooting of my directorial debut, I must never let myself go to any goliardery, even if I might think I am missing some fun, never mingle with the rest of the crew, because they are actors while I am the mirth of a rickety poem. They are solo artists, virtuosos - but I am the orchestra, the strings carpet where everybody has to lay. They are the public, while I am tonight`s special event. I allow them to be instantly well-liked, but I must remain rigorous to reveal my eyes, I have to act out the things that never happen. When I think of my film, I don`t take anything from the reality that I know, I suck only from the utopia/reality I would want to live. When I say my lines, the I have written for myself, I think about this, of a womb-like world where amniotic liquids protect me from injustices and the boogey man.
In Italy people think I`m a cliché. The dark lady, the bitch from hell. All they can see is that I`m naked.
The questions about my father (director Dario Argento) get less and less, and I`m relieved about that. No, I wasn`t upset by the things he did to me in his films. I never thought of it like it was me doing it, because he would say, "It`s only a movie," and I thought the same.
God is a concept by which we can measure our pain.I just believe in me.Yoko and me.And that`s reality.The dream is over.What can I say?
People`s attitudes about sex aren`t healthy anywhere, except maybe in those tribes where they go around naked.
What you might see as depravity is, to me, just another aspect of the human condition.
Why did I spend all these years playing boring Europeans? I was made for action movies.