I thought I understood the story very well, because I`ve lived with it for so long. But movies change and take on a life of their own once they start to be made, and you have to keep your eye on the real ball, not the ball that`s in your head.
In doing everything, from coming up with the ideas and putting them on paper till doing the final edits, you are always thinking the next three steps, you`re always thinking what next, what next, what next?
You always have to keep thinking: "Where am I going?" Whereas acting, you`re always thinking: "What am I doing?" You don`t want to know where you`re going, you want to be right where you are.
And I know when I was younger, and still, I always marvel at what I feel is different from what I`m told that I`m supposed to feel.
In starting to learn about film festivals and what were good ones - `cause there are five billion of them - it was just a really good East Coast festival. And I thought this little movie was an East Coast film.
It`s embarrassing, isn`t it? It took me 15 years to make an 18-minute movie.
So I wanted to explore all points of view of that, not just the girl`s but his point of view as well. Only by directing it could I explore all the points of view.
The idea that we cause harm by doing what we perceive to be the right thing, that`s another theme that interests me. Because most people don`t intend to cause harm, they cause harm by doing the right thing - in their mind.
I was fascinated that everybody in the story thinks that they`re in the right.
Nobody thinks that they`re evil or bad, they think that they`re doing the right thing.
So something about that touched me, obviously, when I was young and it just stayed with me. I`m always amazed by that, because my experience seems to be so much different than what I`m told, so much of the time.
It was a beautiful experience for her, the experience that she had that she confesses. It wasn`t dirty and it wasn`t horrible and wasn`t shattering. It was a wonderful, liberating experience.
You always have to keep thinking: "Where am I going?" Whereas acting, you`re always thinking: "What am I doing?" You don`t want to know where you`re going, you want to be right where you are.
The price of self-empowerment is what I call it. Somebody who thinks outside the box.