Anyone who doesn`t feel the crosses simply doesn`t get that country.
I have things in my head that are not like what anyone has taught me - shapes and ideas so near to me - so natural to my way of being and thinking that it hasn`t occurred to me to put them down.
My first memory is of the brightness of light - light all around. I was sitting among pillows on a quilt on the ground - very large white pillows.
It was all so far away - there was quiet and an untouched feel to the country and I could work as I pleased.
I had to create an equivalent for what I felt about what I was looking at - not copy it.
There was a long weathered carpenter`s bench under the tall tree in front of the little old house that Lawrence had lived in there.
I often lay on that bench looking up into the tree, past the trunk and up into the branches. It was particularly fine at night with the stars above the tree.
I said to myself, I have things in my head that are not like what anyone has taught me - shapes and ideas so near to me - so natural to my way of being and thinking that it hasn`t occurred to me to put them down.
I believe I would rather have Stieglitz like something - anything I had done - than anyone else I know.
Nobody sees a flower - really - it is so small it takes time - we haven`t time - and to see takes time, like to have a friend takes time.
I decided to start anew, to strip away what I had been taught.
To create one`s world in any of the arts takes courage.
I often painted fragments of things because it seemed to make my statement as well as or better than the whole could.
I know now that most people are so closely concerned with themselves that they are not aware of their own individuality, I can see myself, and it has helped me to say what I want to say in paint.
One can`t paint New York as it is, but rather as it is felt.